i went to a psychic today.
spinning was excellent. i ate like shit today so it didn’t help remedy my choices, but spinning for me is more of a mental health thing. it keeps me chipper <3
on the other hand. i think boys need to be kept out of my life. he texts me after 2 and a half weeks and then can’t even be a good communicator and respond. like why fucking text me, and then just ignore me? i don’t know what you’re up to, and quite frankly, i’d be a lot happier if i never met you, because i’d like my heart to not wander from me. not right now. i feel like you’re changing. or i’m finding out more about you. and i like so much about you, but i don’t know if those things are enough. i can’t be happy with you and i can’t be happy without you and i’m just miserable.
i feel my energy being all mixed up and twisted and i can’t get it back to where i want it. it must be my fault because i don’t think the universe is off-kilter right now. i need to get ahold of my energy before it’s too hard to undo.
spinning class in 1.75 hours!!!
in the meantime, wishing i was a lesbian because guys are dumb.
I only feel important when you talk to me. I can never sit still. I think of all the ways my starving hands will touch you.